Something I ask myself sometimes...especially since lately...I'm being the third wheel. My 2 best friends now have Significant others...and i am on my own...I am the girl tht was involved for so long..im afraid to love again.....im damaged Goods...and i am too traditional to be involved it seems....
Yesterday I was the third wheel for my gal best friend and her boyfriend...let me just say...I had fun...It was like the old days where we would go to Dennys...and chill all night
and my other best friend he and his bf just got together...they r still fresh and falling in love and its a great thing....
everyone who starts a new relationship starts tht new one cuz tht last one got to the point it needed to end, and because one deserves better...as we r young...it is the circle of "life" u must get ur heart broken....to learn what true love is...I have had my heart broken by boys left and right..but when i sit here and think about it...i guess it was just my ex tht threw my heart in the blender...and broke me to pieces....In march its gonna be a year of single me...and i must confess...there are days where i text him things he once said...and he never replies....he only does when its something tht interests him...such a rare thing now...thats life...he has let me go...and...in my own twisted way..i let go a little...everyday...i put up a front to people sometimes.....they think im sooo goood...but in reality..i still have bad days...
Well in my last post i mentioned a few different boys besides my ex...
The guy with the kid....we still talk...and i dunno...theres something about him tht makes me wanna see whts up....but..im still not all healed...so why go there...not yet..im not ready...
then there is the guy from SF....hes a co worker..and getting involved with ppl from work...i dunno...and he just didn't catch my attention like i did...we called the dating quits in Nov....we still talk..we r friends...and well he has helped me grow my social network...and i can truly say tht we get sloser as friends as the days go...who knows where this leads to in the future....eh?
then...there is the guy tht i was afraid to let in...that has kinda dissapeared from my life...especially after i told him how i felt....eh....life....i saw him today....and a friend did me the favor to investigate how he feels about me....truth is..he said he still has feelings fo rme...but tht we decided to be friends....i guess it may be for the better...i dont wanna loose his friendship...o wait....we kinda have....i hate hate HATE change....i guess it is what it is...only time can reveal if we share mutual feelings for each other...not to mention that...we have transitioned to different vices....
Everytime I see him..he tells me about this new girl hes seeing...tht kinda stings a little....it burns...i cant do anything about it...cuz..im a chicken...and the past is the past...but i cling to boys..i get attached sometimes....bad fucking habbit
2010...i hope u send me....good things...and good people
Have you ever been a 3rd or 5th wheel?
Have You Ever been called...Clingy?
How much longer till i feel ready to "date" and get out there again?
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Blah! I seem to be the only gal among society that hasn't got a bf. It sucks a lot! I don't have a significant other to share moments and times with... It's been over a year for me of singledom and it's taken a while to get to the stage where i'm enjoying myself, looking into dating again and being open to chatting with new interests. Not all of these guys are my cup of tea, but it feels nice to be able to feel a little real again. :)
So yes, i've been a wheel of all sorts! As you say, the cycle of life.
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